Went to Jessica's and Jut's today with Brent of course! I wasn't going to go alone (toooooo scared and it was fun walking everywhere with Brent) Let's see Brent and I walked through the old neighborhood and stopped at Mike's for a while, went under the bridge by the tracks near my old house (that's changed too), stopped at Taco Bell for late lunch, then continued to Jessica's and Jut's.

And of course, Jut came into the kitchen when I first got there. We playfighted, like normal and he bugged me/teased me like normal. I was a little nervous, but played it off cool. He ignored me the rest of the night for the most part. Papa looks TONS worse. Half his hair is gone, sits mostly sleeping on the hospital bed, doesn't really see "Us" anymore, but more the other side...I couldn't even say hi because I choked up and was afraid.

Well, while spending almost five hours there, I noticed a few things. I did hang out with Jessica and Brent loosened up (unusually unnormal for him). We had tons of fun. But, I noticed: Jut does not wear the necklace I gave him anymore, wears a gold chain with a ring (I think) on it. The back windshield of his car no longer has the sticker I gave him that he slapped on there because it was Who's Your Daddy? with Darth Vader. And my envelope I sent a birthday card is no longer on his wall. Nor is the card I gave him sitting anywhere seen in his room. And his entire wall is filled with lovey dovey stuff from "Hope" and he has pictures of them all around his room (one of them kissing right next the the tv (which he watches a lot of). She's written everywhere on his wall, like filled up the entire space of his wall. And sadly, HARLEY DOESN'T LIVE THERE ANYMORE.....he's not in the equation, but was reallllly hot and reallllly adorable and OH SO SMEXY and playful and nice and fine to look at.

So all in all......................I feel a lot shittier now that I went there (though it's always easy to kick back and have fun, I tell you, I really wanted to scratch his wall all to hell) And Jut probably thought Brent was my boyfriend (I never told him who he was, just Brent) Damn, if I had a superpower it would be to read minds.

This is just a quick journal - i have to run to work in about 7 minutes. Anyway, Jessica Murdock (Jut-Jut's sister) called me yesterday just before I went to work at 7 and told me that her Papa (I've always called him Papa as well) is now dying just like that doctor's say he has for the past year and a half. He is no longer in the hospital, but living at their house on a hospital bed. his brain tumor has gotten worse, and refuses to leave. There may only be a few more weeks, a month at the most, left for him to live.

And in worse news, news that ripped a breath from my throat when she told me. She said that Jut-Jut thinks he's getting married. i have long hoped he wouldn't ever get serious about a girl. I hoped he would one day just quit flirting so tremendously with me, and ask me out like his eyes always said. But, neither of us did. And i haven't seen them in over a year, too afraid to go back. And now, now he might be getting married. My heart feels like it can no longer love, but I being a dreamer, have always hoped for love to sweep me off my feet and be married with that love. haha, guess love just might have to wait for me.

And my heart, is ripped out of my chest and shot into eternal pieces that cannot be glued together again. Can I cry? No, the tears stay brimming, but none fall as they have had for the past five years. What a waste of love I put into him and into my memories of him.

Okay, since the end of last year I have read two manga books, both of which were supposed to go out on the shelves of this year's school library. Unfortunately, neither librarian remembers what happened to them, and they have not appeared on the shelves all year. So, crisis....I just remembered about them and WANT TO KNOW WHAT THEY ARE.

Manga 1 - it is about a teenaged boy, probably slightly older. He appears to be half dragon because for some reason scales showed up on his skin at odd times. This was a serious manga, not chibi style. the art wasn't extravagent, but well-detailed. It was directly about this boy. the only searches I have come up with is Dragon Half and that's about Mink. I DON'T WANT MINK! T___________T

Manga 2 - It's about a girl from another world, and people come after her. This one, random guy trying to protect her, gets dragged to the world. One evil guy has like this chain whip thing that lashes out that guy's eye in an attempt to protect the girl. All I really remember is that is was a different dimension and when this guy first met the girl she was completely naked. And when he did go into this other world, it turned out he had powers that had allowed him to go to that world. The manga was not too bloody, but not cutesy either. And also, it's something about he has to yell at one point how he's going to protect her. I think that's how he gets into the world for the first time, I think anyway.


REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal......I've found a way not to do metal Alphonse....how about kid Alphonse (FLESH!) mwauahhahaha
- My own pirate corgi - yup, she doesn't talk to me anymore.....happens every time I stay off for a long time
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame.....BITCH, you put that in my Annual! I'll try Shigure too, when I find that funny ass pic of him
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Birthday gift for Feb. 21, 2007 (she's getting old) bwuahaha! She wants me to draw her a monkey (I couldn't find that cute, adorable monkey picture, so now....i will have to suffer and find a cute reference....nuuuu fair. But, it's months late. I deserve to suffer. :suffer:

A clever Usul figured out a great way to catch fish in the Underwater Fishing Cavern. (However, in the spirit of fairness, we won't reveal her secret!) The first day she went fishing, she caught exactly 31416 pounds of fish!

Even though she had more fish than she knew what to do with, she decided to go fishing again the next day. And she caught exactly 40% of what she caught the day before. Which was still a lot of fish.

She continued fishing every day. And every day she caught exactly 40% of what she caught the previous day.

If she continued fishing every day for twenty years, how many pounds of fish, total, would she catch? Please round to the nearest pound.


I NEED TO KNOW THE ANSWER BEFORE WEDNESDAY!!!!!! PLEASE HELP LITTLE CORKY OUT!!!!!!

This is a Lenny Conundrum from neopets and I wanted to figure it out, but I don't want to enter my answer because it could be wrong. It takes a while to work out.....so.......yeah.

This is a convo from my ex-boyfriend Jerrett. He is constantly IMing me and then gets off like a minute later if I don't reply right then, and even then, he gets off quick....so anyway....there's something in here, a new phrase I will be using because it is funny as hell. And I want to draw a picture to go with it, but alas, Corky's skillz may not comprehend into a phrase......*gouges eyes out*

fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:51 P.M.]: hi
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:51 P.M.]: whats up?
Fierythefaerie [9:51 P.M.]: oh look, it's say "hey" and get off guy!
Fierythefaerie [9:51 P.M.]: how long will you last today, 10 minutes? lmfao
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:51 P.M.]: i woulda txted you but i fell asleep and thats not funny
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: so why are you smiling?
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:52 P.M.]: i do gotta go mom is going to bed and the cpu keeps her up
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:52 P.M.]: and how do you know im smiling?>>>?????
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: Because I know how to make you smile
Fierythefaerie [9:52 P.M.]: XD I'm good like that dear
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: its not hard to make me smile though
Fierythefaerie [9:53 P.M.]: So............................bite me
Fierythefaerie [9:53 P.M.]: Or I'll make you my bitch. >3333
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: WOW
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:53 P.M.]: OK
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:54 P.M.]: anyways
Fierythefaerie [9:54 P.M.]: made you laugh huh? XD anyways......what?
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:55 P.M.]: i gotta go so call my cell ok got the number????
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:55 P.M.]: its XXX XXX XXXX
Fierythefaerie [9:55 P.M.]: right now? me, call you?
Fierythefaerie [9:55 P.M.]: and I have your digits
fire_dragion@yahoo.com [9:56 P.M.]: in like 30 mins
Fierythefaerie [9:56 P.M.]: awwww....fine. in 30 I will call you

Can you tell he was.....erm....uncomfortable with that?!?!?! First time I've successfully done that.

REQUESTS
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Wants me to draw Kyo
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- Birthday gift, b-day October 12 (Damn, Ten-chan, I still haven't drawn you anything. That'll have to change. I might dedicate one of my new drawings to you when I finish them. FORGIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!
- Damn you Zahra!!!!!! *curses you* I will draw Ayame.....BIATCH, you put that in my Annual! I'll try Shigure too, when I find that funny ass pic of him
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Birthday gift for Feb. 21, 2007 (she's getting old) bwuahaha! She wants me to draw her a monkey (I couldn't find that cute, adorable monkey picture, so now....i will have to suffer and find a cute reference....nuuuu fair. But, it's months late. I deserve to suffer. :suffer: