............so my best friend of five years and I are not really speaking and when we do it's strained for now. We'd been dating for just over 11 months, we wanted to hit a year. But because of me, we are no longer dating. So I am just....prolly not going to be doing much.

I want space, I wanted time alone, I was doing shit I didn't want to do, I was saying stuff I didn't think was true or the same as when he said it. In order to keep his happines and have him smile and laugh and feel the world was a place to want to live in, I was killing myself and shoving away my true happiness for myself. So I came to the conclusion we might be breaking up soon and yesterday we...um, I, called it qutis because he considered it over and I considered it over.

My other best friend, has been talking and comforting me, but he loves me the exact same way but is waaay more space giving, understanding, and backs down from me so that neither of us will be more hurt than we are and that my boyfriend...gah, ex-boyfriend, doesn't think "oh you dumped me because aaron was better than I was and you were waiting for that chance to happen" when it's NOT like that. Not one damn bit.

So....I feel elated, but extremely depressed. Brent is taking it VERY hard. His speech falters and doesn't just "flow" he hasn't eaten or drank anything in five days, and last time he tried he continuously threw it up.

So Corky is a very manipulating, horrible, bitch cuz this is what I do to people. In the end all are hurt by me. Though Aaron tells me I better stop saying it, so I do, but in my head it's still there faintly, causing unease when I love people being happy and I am not happy unless my friends are. They are my family they are my world. If I have done something to them that hurts, I want to make up for it. In this case I can't. I would be miserable being forced back into the relationship with Brent.

I just need to find my own happiness and for right now, it's in arms of comfort because aaron knows all and is updated on heart-wrenching pains of Brent. But right now that's all he is is the comfort zone as he has always been. We have settled on being friends, close friends, no more and no less. neither of us will run away and not return which is what we bot hahd decided but then would be devestated by the loss of (in my case) the last person to know everything about anything) and in his (the only one who ever truly cared to know even the dark side of him). T__________________T

And school starts back up monday. Please take my mind off these things. And so this is why I have been only barely coming back to deviantART/ I would love to be on it day after day chatting and drawing and writing with the happiness I once had. But now it's so hard when I also found out - My dad's been married for like a month or just under a month now. He secretly eloped with his girlfriend. Never knew.

Yes people....I've been gone. Same as always. BUT! I have come back with a LAPTOP AND INTERNET OF MY OWN!!! ALL MINE!!! TIS MINE!!!! Only one thing - Fawkes currently in possession of my scanner/printer. So! When we both get a moment, I will barge in, ignore her naked mother, scream in agony at her brother, and just flop onto her computer chair and work my fingers at the printer!

Anywayz - of the art situation...... I HAVE TONS AND TONS OF NEW ART!!! THAT's a lot better than I used to draw. Many are completed drawings, some are still in sketch phase, and some are even colored now!!! XDXDXDXD So, within about a week or so I should be able to post at least one drawing as a starting point.

Of requests - I might have to start over, or keep this and eventually do them. It's been so long since they were supposed to be completed. Does anyone even care about their requests? NO! Cuz I was a huge disappointment in everything and anything possible. So therefore!

So here I am. Who's left to say hello?

REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (Can we say, I think I completed this?)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi (don't think this will ever happen, tried an animal the other day....hahahahaha....ha....no, didn't work)
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well....... (ehehehehehehehehhe, which is exactly what happened)

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko( I forgot!), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

I don't know if that last post made it, plus it changed the other one I had clicked on! How sad! Maybe I can go back to the original and fix that?

Yes people....I've been gone. Same as always. BUT! I have come back with a LAPTOP AND INTERNET OF MY OWN!!! ALL MINE!!! TIS MINE!!!! Only one thing - Fawkes currently in possession of my scanner/printer. So! When we bot hget a moment, I will barge in, ignore her naked mother, scream in agony at her brother, and just flop onto her computer chair and work my fingers at the printer!

Anywayz - of the art situation. As you know....my requests......well, they've been like.........just words on my journal. But I'll have you know I'm working on them you bastards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <---- updating this is like saying I did nothing. I have tons of new art I think, I must rifle through my notebook, I have "sketches" that I know of and tons of face doodles, some body. but! Who knows.

Of requests - I might have to start over, or keep this and eventually do them. It's been so long since they were supposed to be completed. Or posted. My life really really got busy and school and work was all that I did. Now, I have a free moment to say >{ DEVIANTART HAS POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORN. UGH. It disgusted me. IMMENSELY. "Not eactly in violation" dA stated, but WTFH? I'D RATHER NOT SEE A VAGINA OF A PROSTRATING WOMAN WHEN I LOOK UP body movements and it's just...ugh.

So here I am. Who's left to say hello?
REQUESTS
- Wants me to draw Kyo (Can we say, I think I completed this?)
- A picture along the lines of [link]
- Kyo from Fruits Basket, my style.
- Pita-ten character (prolly will do Shia or Sasha) ....but, since I'm not good with wings, who knows
- Chesire cat; Sailor Moon
- Draw his character, b-day gift for October 4th.
- Alphonse - damn metal
- My own pirate corgi (don't think this will ever happen, tried an animal the other day....hahahahaha....ha....no, didn't work)
- Draw another Rin Sohma; draw Corky in Halloween outfit (100% not possible)
- October 12. Another b-day gift. I may just color her piccu as the present, because I've been unusually busy and I might forget or end up not doing it for another year as well....... (ehehehehehehehehhe, which is exactly what happened)

Other Requests: Kurama(Aug 29th), Yukiko( I forgot!), (sp?)Zhongyi(Sept. 11?), and Blizzy (Oct. 4?)

Yup....I am a very horrible person. I left all my of new and old friends here on dA. Some have abandoned me, others are still waiting, and still others wish to kill me....or even have ignored me altogether. But! I have optimism that annoys them all! I will either make new ones or just talk to all my ones I have now and see who answers. hahahahaha. Which may be few. I've been gone quite some time.

I need internet. Badly. Does anyone know everything there is about fixing internet connection via Broadband on a laptop? I've tried everyone as is and none can fix it, even by playing with it by hand.

Anywayz, hopefully a few new drawings are on the way. I do have quite a few, some I haven't completed the sketch and others I wish to improve, while others are complete.

So anyway, this is Corky, back from whence the dead strove to drown her in this so called life.

Level 1
(x ) said LOL out loud
(x) forgotten your own age
(x) tried to lick your elbow

SO FAR: 3

Level 2
( ) said the wrong name in bed
( ) had unprotected sex
( ) hurt yourself sexing
( ) sexed yourself hurting
SO FAR: 3

Level 3
(x) Licked your toe
(x) Licked a frozen pole- to see if my tongue would stick
(x) Licked a dog bone
(x) Licked a dog- when I was a child

SO FAR: 7

Level 4
(x) drank old milk (Accidentally, IT WAS DISGUSTING)
( ) drank milk right from a cow
(x) ever thought chocolate milk came from brown cows
( ) drank Qwik right from the brown cow
( ) pushed a cow over

SO FAR: 9

Level 5
(x) Eaten bugs (*shudder*)
(x) Eaten garbage (I was so hungry once, I grabbed something Dad had just thrown away cuz he didn't want it
(x) Eaten food off the floor after 5 seconds (Like all the time, but only at family's houses, anywhere else and I don't touch it)
(x) Eaten a booger (mmmmm.....so tasty. LAWLZ. Did that)

SO FAR: 13

Level 6
(x) Been in a 5 seater Car with more than 7 people (Hellz yeah, more than once)
(x) Been in a 7 seater van with over 12 people (I believe once, when we were all going somewhere and crammed wherever)
( ) Driven in a 7 seater van by youself (well Jahneana was the passenger, so no, guess not alone)
(x) Driven a tricycle past the age of 3
(x) Driven yourself home to the wrong hous (Our neighbors house looks just like ours and I drove past mine and then realized it)

SO FAR: 17

Level 7
(x) Put dirty dishes in the fridge (I've put a cereal box in it too, without thinking and I had the milk ready for the cupboard before I went...wait a minute...FUUUUCK)
( ) Put bowls of food in the dishwasher
( ) Put a full glass of juice in the cupboard
( ) Put salt in your coffee
(x) Dropped the cap into the glass you're drinking from (Yup)

SO FAR: 19

Level 8
(x) Jumped over a car (Attempted to)
( ) Jumped out of a moving car (Wanted to, never did)
( ) Jumped into a thorny bush on purpose
(x) Jumped off a bridge (Several, but they weren't from death defying heights)
(x) Jumped off your house - From when I was little until this new house of ours, I'm too short to climb on it)

SO far: 22

Level 10
(x) Forgot where you live
(x) Forgot your own birthday
(x) Forgot to zip up in the morning (More than once, and it's not always in the morning)

SO FAR: 25

Level 11
(x) Walked into a Pole
(x) Walked into a Wall
(x) Walked into someone
(x) Walked into a parked car

SO FAR: 29

Level 12
( ) Won A Burping contest
(x) Burped the alphabet -
(x) Burped just to break the silence
(x) Burped too hard and threw up

SO FAR: 32

Level 13
(x) Eaten a whole bag of chips
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Eaten a whole pizza so no one else could have a slice (that's disturbing and selfish)

SO FAR : 33

Level 14
(x) Caught picking your nose (When I was younger, that always seemed to happen
(x) Caught going to the bathroom outside (Mom stopped our car and we went outside cuz we were on a trip and there wasn't a place for miles, a few cars passed by)
(x) Caught with your pants down (And also, it happened I was caught without a shirt on.
( ) Caught having sex
(x) Caught sexing yourself (When I was like....12, I believe)
SO FAR: 37

Level 15
(x) Shoved something up your nose- it was a bead in Kindergarten (toilet paper to stop either bleeding or soak up what blocks a stuffy nose)
(x) Picked your nose and studied what came out (I did that too)
(x) Picked your nose till it bled
( ) Let your nose bleed to see the awesome blood all over you
( ) Blew your nose so damn hard your whole body hurt
SO FAR: 40

Level 16
(x) Told a lie
(x) Been caught in a lie
(x) Lied to cover a lie
(x) Lied to cover your ass
( ) Lied to an undercover hooker cop

SO FAR: 44

Level 17
(x) Laughed at someone in pain
(x) Laughed too loud and embarrassed yourself
(x) Laughed at a funeral (My cuz Katie was there and in order to force myself not to cry, we decided to talk about fun times and all kinds of random stuff and laughed our asses off)
(x) Laughed so hard you pissed yourself

SO FAR: 48

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Believed in Santa past the age of 8
(x) Believed your folks that a bunny laid chocolate eggs outside
(x) Believed you were never too old for trick or treating (STILL DO DAMMIT!!!! I DON'T CARE IF I'LL BE 19! The only thing that gives me away are the *tumors* on my chest that continuously grow

SO FAR: 52

Level 19
(x) Threw a party for yourself (All the time, I've never had a surprise party and if I want a party on or around my b-day, I might as well make it happen)
( ) Threw a ball at yourself
(x) Threw up on yourself
(x) Threw a ball at a wall that returned directly at your crotch
( ) Threw a superball in the house and took it right in the face

SO FAR: 55

Level 20
(x) Pretended to know what you are doing
(x) Pretended you were hot shit (More like hot stuff, I wouldn't wanna be hot shit)
(x) Pretended you werent listening
(x) Pretended you were Spiderman

SO FAR: 59

Level 22
(x) Fell on the sidewalk
(x) Fell down the stairs
(x) Fell UP the stairs (oh....my....god....>> That was forgotten for a reason)
(x) went Sledding down the stairs (whether I had something to slide with or not)

SO FAR: 63

Level 23
(x) Tried to do a real cool backflip (hurt my back)
(x) and busted your ass (And busted it really hard)
(x) Tried to do a real cool cartwheel (And couldn't land it)
( ) and didn’t lift your feet

SO FAR: 66

Level 24
(x) Ate food that you just kinda found (still in a closed wrapper and not on ground with mushedness on it, it's okay!)
(x) Ate the mystery food in the back of the fridge
( ) Ate something nasty to get a laugh
( ) Cried when no one laughed (They always laugh)

SO FAR: 68

Level 25
(x) Cried when you hurt yourself
(x) Cried when you didn't get your way
( ) Cried over spilled milk
( ) Cried after sex

SO FAR: 70

Level 26
( ) Gone swimming naked (I really wanna try that)
(x) Gone swimming in a strangers pool
(x) Gone swimming with a hose in the yard
(x ) Gone swimming in a stank ass pond (Yup, but not for long)
(x) Gone swimming in the bathtub like a champ (Pretended I was swimming?)

SO FAR: 74

Level 27
(x) rode a Pony
(x) rode a Donkey
(x) rode a lawnmower pretending it was awesome racecar (Sar's house, the Gator)
( ) rode a shovel pretending it was an awesome spaceship.
(x) rode the dog (Trie to)

SO FAR: 78

Level 28
(x) Locked yourself out of your house
(x) Locked yourself out of your car (now I wear the key around my neck)
( ) Locked yourself IN the car
(x) Trapped yourself in a child's plastic house (And thought I was stuck for good)
(x) Tangled yourself up in a rope
( ) Tangled yourself up in a hose
( ) Locked yourself in the trunk WITH the keys
SO FAR: 82

Level 29
( ) over-cooked a fancy meal
(x) over-cooked the EasyMAC
(x) over-cooked a pop-tart
(x) over-cooked a tiny plastic army man
(x) over-cooked yourself at the beach

SO FAR: 86

Level 31
(x) Bitten plastic fruit
(x) bit too hard and hurt your teeth
(x) bit down before the fork got in your mouth
(x) Lifted an empty soda you thought was full thereby flinging it (but keeping a basic hold on it)
(x) Overcompensated en extra step in the stairs that wasnt there (How about undercompensated as well)

SO FAR:91

Level 32
(x) Mistaken a stranger for a family member and blabbed at them (Grabbed onto a black man when I was younger and thought he was Dad. Mom wanted something for me, and I screamed no and jumped backwards where Dad should've been and latched on)
(x) Mistaken a man for a woman or vice-verca
( ) Shaved your eyebeows
(x) Poked yourself in the eye with safety goggles!

TOTAL: 94

Repost this with the title:
I've Done ___ of the 120 stupidest things

AND OMFG, I MUST BE SOOOOOOOO STUPID!!!!! For being quite intelligent.....I've done some stupid shit. I was sad they didn't have anything about getting run over by a go cart, or running into a parked car, running into a car that was just started and about to go somewhere) I've done more shit not included here.